` Labour win, last week of TAFE & work

Mood: Sleepy~
Chewing: Wrigley's Extra Sweetmint gum
Now playing: Sarah Blasko - Your Way
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

My first go at voting, I made a mistake .. and I had to line up and didn't like it already.
I have no idea how I'm suppose to put up with it for the rest of my life >_> troublesome!
But alas, Kevid Rudd [running for Labour] won - how excitment - so long John Howard; finally.

Last week of TAFEing, and since there's nothing to do in Drawing class today, I didn't go.
*dance* but I'll be working more ... why didn't I lie ;_; WHY ?!?!
Oh yeah, so I'm back at work and I already want to stay at home .. people are so mean I almost cried.
I should be finishing off my last assessment for PI .. heh, oh well~
No work on Wednesday!!

Almost Christmas time~~~~

.lidia

` Music && Soul v.34; Operator Please

Album Cover: Operator Please - Get What You Want
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Song Lyrics: Operator Please - Get What You Want

Disappointed
You know there's never gonna be a cherry face
Inside this crowded room
Think you're the shit now
Because my lingo is so out of loop
Why yes I'm out of loop
Let's turn our noses up
Become a snob because we're treading the rooves
'Cause we're so fucking cool
Oh, give that act up
You know you're geeks that conglomerate
In the city we speak of

[Chorus]:
'Cause you don't always get what you want
Oh no you can, oh no you can, oh no you can
'Cause you don't always get what you want
I know you can, I know you can, I know you can

Attack, attack
My disposition
Get the vulnerable predators on the loose
Yeah, let's be vulgar
Internet sex naked computers
I wish I could
Feed you some ritalin
So maybe I could get a reaction
Or maybe even some facial expression
But it's not your fault
If you don't really wanna

[Repeat chorus x 2]

Attack, attack
My disposition
Your tennis shoes
Oh, get your ten issues
What ever am I to do?

I wish I could
Feed you some ritalin
So maybe I could get a reaction
Or maybe even a facial expression
But it's not your fault
If you really don't wanna

[Repeat chorus]

'Cause you don't always get what you want
And you don't always get what you want
'Cause you don't always get what you want
And you don't always get what you want

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` Possibly unitentionally flirtings .. oops!

Mood: Tired, lazy, etc ..
Eating: was; Apple flavoured lollipop
Now playing: Emilie Simon - Never Fall in Love
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

New report stat: I may have just turned down a date.
That's right folks, I just may of .... like I'm suppose to know what a date is like unless the person offering says it is D8< grrr ...
So who was this person? Why, the er ... how to put it nicely, dopey? But in a cute way ... yeaaah.
Oh, and his name's Alex .. with typical blonde hair and blue eyes, LOOL~
How did it happen?
We're suppose to have completed our BBQ Catalogue illustration by today .. and as usual, he didn't start much on it. I finished the night before, plus some 2 hours today in the very early mornings.
I seem to have paid extra attention to my vegetables, so asked/told me to colour them in for him .. of course, being the selfish bastard-bitch I am I refused, then thought about it and asked what I would get in return - wasn't offering, purely asking for the sake of doing something for someone I always want like the same thing in return or similar service back.
Anyway, his reply was on the lines of: "How about a movie on Thrusday" to which I always automatically say no to, though I probably should've also said the typical reason to that as well .. which I forgot at the time because of his reply.
He didn't look at me when he asked, which got me thinking he probably did mean a little something more than that by just seeing a movie >_>" but like I said, I wouldn't have known~
Yeah, I kinda mumbled that I don't go out to see movies anyway .. and he was taking it like nothing happened [I think .. he was pretty red .. pure aussieness, lol .. too white + blush = you'll see] but er, yeaaaah ........... ROFL, I probably would've turned down anyone anyway.
Seriously!
I don't want to have to go through 'anything' at the same moment when I'm trying to study still, after all, I tried those things during high school and my marks just went down low.
And besides, I don't think I'm mentally + emotionally ready for anything like that .. I go completely blind when anyone likes me .. so yeah, first I need to learn to be strong on my own.
I'll live, get that Diploma and go on to study in Uni and get my Bachelor .. get a proper job soon after that, and THEN I'll probably be able to go out partner-hunting .. uh-huh~

Anything about anyone getting even the slightest bit interested in me, I do get really happy but if I really think about it .. it just first impressions really.
I don't think I can fully come out with my other side just yet .. let them enjoy my good, happy sides .. and hope they don't hate me when the see the whole of me.
Oh, and freakin' Pepper Dennis on Channel 7 @ 3 PM is luff!!
Here's to hoping & future well-being~

.lidia

` Overworked, stressed, paranoid; My life so far.

Mood: lazy
Eating: was eating chocolate ;_; bad!
Now playing: Bjork - Unravel
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

FAROUT, I had chocolate today ;_; and I'm trying my best to resist it.
Only today happens to be 'high school selling chocolate fund raiser' ... Oh my gosh, and my mum gave money to us to buy some to help support them .. ARGH!!!
How am I suppose to resist ;_; ?!
So, I have unsuccessfully given up chocolate because I just did an EPIC FAIL upon myself!
I guess this all started when my Aunty said that I looked fat, and not to be mistaken with literally, but in our culture it means healthy looking .. when you're big, then yeah ...~
But no, she said and meant I looked much healthier, and I feel great to know that someone else thinks that way of my figure, but I can't help but remember the literal meaning of 'being fat'.
Yeah .. I can say I like my weight, and I do - it's just my arms and tummy I need to work out - I don't plan to lose weight! Just tone up my arms and tummy, my legs are ok .. I don't mind them really :3
The arms need dire attention though - they're huge! Like, almost 2 of my brother's one arm and that'll equal just my one arm x_x so cha~ I'm definitely wanting to sculpt that up a bit!
I just need to make sure my tummy doesn't blow up when it's not even that full >_>" seriously.
A singular 'fatty-ish' food and I'm like a ballon .. so, I need to sort of train it to stay in shape~

I got my Typo assessment done, the brochure one where it required a total designage x_x and yes, as usual, last minute and freaking out it's due the next day.
But guess what, it wasn't even due today - not until next week! And I didn't even know till I pretty much finished!!!
All good though, now that's out of the way I can concentrate on assessments that is / will be due next week - yes! I left a lot till the last minute!
*stress stress grumble mumble - breathe*
I'm tired because I'm paranoid and suddenly wake up at random times, stressing over assessments .. I'm totally gonna be 'teh Panda Eyes' :3

Oh, and let's not forget work.
Seems the absolute head cashier has gone off on her holidays already! I feel sorry for Maire, who I think is pretty much in charge since Delma left her without teaching her supervisory & absolute head cashiering.
I feel bad for cancelling the whole of next week, but seriously - I need a break!!
I'll be working the rest of this weeks shifts, then cramming assessments and stressing over trying to get them done on time, and then I will somehow make it to the Twiins b'day outing that's late at night and doesn't end to really late at night.

So much hectikness.
I barely show up online on MSN anymore .. I miss the people, I miss their talks, but on the net it's not as fun? I don't know ..
I think I might be falling back into my depressive state, because I'm always stressing with school assessments, then work because I'm paranoid they'll fire me or ask me to work and when I say I can't they'll give me less and lesser shifts to do.
Not to mention the no-social-life-status .. not that I'm social or anything, but I've hardly been out just to go out!
*exasperated sigh*

I can't wait for the holidays - hopefully school-free and less work.
I need to get going to dinner .. shower will be later, gets hot then cold then hot again - crazy Melb-like weather, ftw!
Meditation should be revisited .. it's been a looooong while since I've done any of that~

.lidia

` Music && Soul v.33; Sia

Album Cover: Sia - Colour The Small One

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Song Lyrics: Sia - Breathe Me

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part of it all is there's no one else to blame

[Chorus]:
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am no where else to be found
Yeah, I think I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

[Repeat chorus x2]

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` Short update: Too much work, little of school

Mood: Grumpy hmm's
Eating: healthy, or trying to
Now playing: Sia - Breathe Me
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

I hate working too many days, never enough time for school work, which is all due next week - pretty much anyway.
Trying to find some new songs to download, and ended up going through OLD songs, haha.
Sia is love!
Maybe one day, and only if I pursue a dream of mine to be a singer, solo or band - preferably band.
That's it.

.lidia

` I'm all yours, NOT. School, work, periods ..

Mood: bleh..
Eating: was munching on Maccas cookies
Listening to: nuffin' ATM
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darlings ~

Hectikness.
Got my periods a couple of days ago.
Seriously 'hooked' on the Veronicas new song: Hook Me Up - damned catchy;
they're alright, love their songs - don't like them much.
Assessments, assessments .. complex assessments needing me to go out late at night -
fun but ugh, annoying because of timing -
wonder how I'll be able to get that one done; hasn't been handed out though but we know about it.

I'm hungry.
Back on track - trying to fill up the space,
because I like to fill things up and make them even-ish ..
and pretty.
What?
I can't help it~
*angelic shine* Ka-ching!
It looks fun doing this, really.
I should do it more often then sometimes .. but
I guess I usually have too much to type about and well,
I don't get enough space to type like this - all separated and all.
LOOL~

I still need to keep it going.
I'm itchy - damned stockings.
Which reminds me -
I need to buy a few new pairs -
the normal, thin ones like I got on now and,
some thick ones .. that don't just go up the legs.
I have leggings .. but they don't stay up ;_; *woe* ..
I like them,
but my legs are too fat or something because they can't hang on up on my legs.
Cha~
I need to lose some weight.

Oh!
Starting that diet shake thingy again,
so I can skip breakfast and it'll be okay
because that shake thingy can replace a meal or two
:B
Awesomenidge <--- I like making up words. YAY!! for me~
I also need to clean out my wardrobe -
it's totally cluttered in there,
and/or stuffed.

Well,
I think that about does it .. better stop here~
Thanks for reading, if you've actually read through this all - lol~~

.lidia

P.S:
I almost filled it up right -
almost!
/EDIT

` Music && Soul v.32

Album Cover: The Veronicas - Hook Me Up
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Song Lyrics: The Veronicas - Hook Me Up

I'm tired of my life
I feel so in between
I'm sick of all my friends, girls can be so mean
I feel like throwing out everything I wear
I'm starting over new
'Cause I'm not even there

Sometimes
I wanna get away some place
But I don't wanna stay too long
Sometimes
I wanna brand new day
Try to fit in where I don't belong

[Chorus]:
Hoooooooooooook, hook me up
I wanna feel the rain in my hair
Hoooooooooooook, hook me up
Where should we go, I don't even care

Anywhere is good enough
Hook me up
Hook me up

The like the lights turned out
The sound of closing doors
I'm not like the other girls
Who always feels so sure

Of everything they are
Of what they're gonna be
Sometimes I'm just a girl
Stuck inside of me; of me

Sometimes I wanna disappear some place
But I don't wanna stay too long
Sometimes
I'm feeling so alone
Trying to fit in where I don't belong

[Repeat chorus]

Anywhere is good enough
Hook me up
Hook me up
Anywhere is good enough
Hook me up

They're gonna crash and burn
I'm gonna find the way
Nothing left to say

[Repeat chorus x2]

Anywhere is good enough
Hook me up
Hook me up
Hook me up

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