` Music && Soul v.41; Tegan and Sara

Album Cover: Tegan and Sara - So Jealous
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Song Lyrics: Tegan and Sara - I Know I Know I Know
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Hundreds of miles, yeah, you cry like a baby
You plead with me, shout, scream, tell me I'm staying
I know, I know, I know, I'm still your love
Back from the last place that I wanted to fake
You laugh with me, shout, scream, now tell me I'm staying
I know, I know, I know, you're still my love
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless, it's me and you

Box after box, and you're still by my side
The weather is changing and breaking my stride
Oh well, I know, I know, I know, it's just this day
House after house, just like car after car
You see club after club, and it seems all so far
I know, I know, I know, what else are we here for?
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless, it's me and you

Stick your hands inside my pockets
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me
Hasn't changed me at all

Last night I was writing about you
I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you
I know, I know, I know, you're still my love
I wake up to the sound of you working
In one room right over, you're stressing and loving me
I know, I know, I know, be still my love
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless, it's me and you

Stick your hands inside my pockets
Keep them warn while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me
Hasn't changed me at all
Stick your heart inside my chest
Keep it warm here while we rest
Tell them this love hasn't changed me
Hasn't changed me at all

The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless, it's me and you
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless, it's me and you

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` Happy V'Day-B'Day Natalie Lai!

Congratulations little cousin!
Wishing you all the best for your special-ish day, you love child!
Love you lots <3

` Don't push my buttons!

Mood: Shaky
Now playing: Linkin Park - Valentine's Day (www.weetart.tk)
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

I almost crushed my dad's leg tonight.
It was rubbish day, and the bins were all the way at the back of the garage, plus 3 cars in front of it. So, the 'rents made me drive the one in front of the house - I did that, but when I went to drive back, Dad was standing RIGHT in front of me and when I went to press the brakes I must've still had a bit of the big-ass flip-flop on the accelerate and yeah .. you get the idea.

All this and on Valentine's Day.
Life is fucking grand! not.

Ugh, and so much drama on Gothopia it's started to really piss me off.
Since I was appointed to looking after the poems, and seen the lack of activity there's been on there, saw that my fellow Staff member looking after the blogs had some problems with people complaining about some member posting poems in floods.
So I tried to direct their attention to my section.
I also got a little blog of my own saying I was looking after the poem section before all that though and still got no one posting in my area.
SO, I got myself a thread open about it and then got some messages saying where to post poems and I was saying to most of them, where it was.
I ended up getting a little too many of the same question about where .. and I got annoyed that they weren't bothered to look at the front long enough to notice that there was already a post by KS saying where and how and what you need to do to get your poem up.
Since it's also in my area of looking for new featured poems, I mentioned that because of lack of activity in my area, I wouldn't be able to pick any poems because I wasn't getting new poems to pick from.
Which only got me members that don't share an open mind enough and for some strange, strange reason cannot stand KS at all .. and they just go right on ahead pinning crap on me and why they're not allowed to post poems in their blogs and I was like, WTF, I didn't say you couldn't but it was best because there were members doing that already and flooding the blogs, which I knew some of the same people shitting me were complaining about.

God forbid me for trying to help and get shit for doing so.
I swear, they just push my buttons too much - and they seriously don't care to read carefully.
Anyway, my fellow Jay whose in charge of the blogs .. feels that it's fault that the drama started over the poetry, which is not true!
It was just people twisting crap around and just not bothered to understand something, and being the stubborn people they are, I believe have started to blame him for something that is my fault because I was trying to help him out, help everyone else out with the flooding situation to only get people so blind to go on and be impolite bastards.
I don't know how long they're going to play their stupid game, but I'm not going to give up that easily, and I hope that Jay keeps fighting and not let their stupid things get to him.
But I swear, if he leaves because of them .. because they don't know or care to know when to stop their crap, I will go on a massacre.

*exhales*
I think I need to take more than one pill of those 'stress relief' stuff I got myself.
Oh, and TAFE classes, which I thought was this week - isnt! Not until next week - farout!! Plus I didn't get no notification .. bloody hell.
AND, to top it off .. I HAVE MY PERIODS STILL.
Hell hath no mercy.

No wonder of been biting people's head off, pfft~



.lidia

` A little bit of everything mixed in

Mood: Sleepy
Now playing: Tool - Parabola
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

It's going to be a little bit of an off day today.
Tonight, the family should be going to one of my Uncle's house to celebrate a slight Chinese New Years and also a little early b'daying for the Child of Love; Natalie Lai!!

But right now, I'm stuck with my dad and bro who are both cleaning up - it's that time again to chuck out big sorts of junk.
Oh! And Dad got his new car .. it's really nice actually, and spacious too .. and the colours nice as well.
I think we're going to the little family party in that car, haha, and that'll make everyone really think my dad did win the lotto even more so now.
Oh wells~

I go back to TAFE the following week, on Wednesday to be precise.
I'll be working till then .. but I haven't gotten my periods so I'm thinking it'll come the following week and I'm going to have to cancel - LOOL - well, I can't 'operate' too well when I'm PMSing anyhow.
I'm a little nervous to get back to TAFE though, I have to admit, and I didn't really get to stay in touch with any of my friends.
Woe is me~!
BUT, the only good thing I can look forward to is that I have to finish this whole year then half of next year, and considering if I get more than just a Pass and hopefully enough credits and distinctions, I will get my Diploma for Graphic Design, and also hopefully by then I'll have found a 'career' in my field of interest, get working there enough .. then I'll either continue study in Uni and hope that my credits and distinctions are enough to get me to continue to do only 2-3 years only.
OR, I might work a bit more then see if I can get a place over in London, and possibly move in with my bestie Lee, work and live there for a while and then come back to Oz.
I'm too grounded to what I've come to know as home now, so I'll either adapt or get homesick - we shall see though.

*sigh* I'll be 19 this year.
I haven't accomplished much, well, that's how I think anyway.
I've still got to really deal with my 'mental issues' yet, though the Doc assured me I'm probably just a little too anxious at most times and I'm fine.

Oh, and I also got my room rearranged.
I'll have to upload the pictures some other time - been planning to get some photos onto here soon.

Now, I think I should go get myself polished up a bit, get changed and wait till my Mum gets back then all head over to the family party!
Till then~


.lidia

` Music && Soul v.40; The Veronicas

Album Cover: The Veronicas - Hook Me Up
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Song Lyrics: The Veronicas - All I Have
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I was missing you
You were miles away
He was close to me
I let him stay
Then I closed my eyes
He almost felt the same
But when the morning broke I cried out your name
If I'd only known
It would break us
I'd have done anything just to save us

[Chorus]:
'Cause you're all I have
When the world comes down on me
You're the one I love
And I'm begging you to see
You're all, you're all, you're all I have
You are, you are the one I love
You are, you are, you're all I have

You've forgiven me
But it doesn't change
The guilt I feel when you mention his name
No more innocence
How to trust again
Wanna believe that you won't do the same
And every time we fight
We're getting closer
I slowly die inside
I'm scared it's over

[Repeat chorus]

Your love for me was always there
Maybe too much for me to care
Now that I know I messed it up
I'd give my all to take it back

[Repeat chorus]

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