`lidiæxcessive.: June 2008

Saturday, 28 June 2008

` How placid.

Mood: Lethargic
Drinking: Lipton ice Tea Mango Flavour
Now playing: The Wombats - Backfire At the Disco
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

I will be 19 years old in four more days, excluding this day.
I'm keeping in contact with Lee -- I have recently replied to his reply email; very happy to be thinking of him since he always gets me in a cherry mood.

No art.
Just what's left of my first year of college work -- will be finished completely when I hand in my last assessment on Monday.
Need to finish said assessment by tomorrow!
Can't wait to get it over and done with; can't be bothered to re-submit other dreadful projects to certain German teacher.
Argh!
Hope to have art posted someday soon, though probably never until too late.

Not many new songs to listen / DL, but few strange and nice music still.
Am gaining weight -- need to do something about it -- probably eat less again and hopefully, start morning routine of running (?).
Really need to shower now.

.lidia

` Music && Soul v.48; Ladytron

Album Cover: Ladytron - Velocifero
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Song Lyrics: Ladytron - Ghost

In the first days
Of the spring time
Made you up and split from one thousand enemies
Made a trail of
Of a thousand tears
Made you a prisoner inside your own secrecy

[Chorus]:
There's a ghost in me
Who wants to say I'm sorry
Doesn't mean I'm sorry

At the first hour
Of the spring time
Made you up and split from one thousand enemies

Now I see you
From the corner
Clock strikes and I know you will be drinking alone

[Repeat chorus x8]

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Thursday, 12 June 2008

` Like the light behind the clouds

Mood: Mostly very depressive
Chewing: Wrigley's Eclipse ICE Spearmint Gum
Now playing: Flaw - Medicate
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

It's been much too long since I last posted here.
Much has happened, or will be happening from this month on but I won't go into too much detail [I hope] for now.

My parents pissed me off tonight, so maybe that's why I've finally gotten around to post in here.
I seriously need to think of something to had in for one of my class projects which is due tomorrow -- originally, I had this slowly spinning mirror stand thingy, but I haven't gone to get the clock mech still and I won't be able to get it done unless I go and buy a ticking one -- so I'll have to think up a new design, fuck.

I finally got to chat to LEE <3!!!!!!!!
Whenever I talk to him, things feel a little better and I usually cope better.
His my driving force, but when I can't get to chat to him for a long while, I feel that I will start to get down and gloomy, very laid back and not caring much at all. So, I was super glad to get to chat to him for a little while -- his always been there for me, and I love him dearly.
I think a lot of people will get mislead as to what the relationship between Lee and I is like -- his my best friend, the type of person you will make a pact with to get married to them if you haven't done so by a certain age .. but his also very dear to me, like a brother but also a treasured person overall.
Though, I probably wouldn't care if people did mistake us as a couple -- that's how carefree I can be with him, because I don't have to worry except for him and myself -- that's all.

Still haven't posted any art in deviantART yet.
It bugs me a lot, because I haven't felt very creative as of late, like I'm lacking in art again.
Anyway, I suppose I'll get by and keep going -- I really want to finish as soon as I can, get my diploma and try out for a advanced diploma and hope I get that; enter Uni with hopefully only needing to complete 1-2 years max, then I should've already done 2 years experience and try a transfer to London and get to meet up with Lee!
That is, if things can run that way smoothly for once in my life.

Parents are going to Melbourne very soon, so I'm to look after the housing and the people living in it, which includes myself, my brother, Rufus my dog and the fishes I can't be bothered to name anymore.
Family passing -- so yeah, hasn't been the best couple of years so far.

Well, I said I didn't want this to run for too long, though I think I did so I'll end this here.
Thanks to those that have read this~

.lidia

` Music && Soul v.47; 10 Years

Album Cover: 10 Years - The Autumn Effect
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Song Lyrics: 10 Years - Waking Up

Distance and space
Allow emotions to age
Into faith
Our bodies
May end up alone
But close

[Bridge]:
Are you there?
Can you hear me?
Are you there?
Can you feel me?

Just in the way
All your fingertips
Touch me
They are healing
One day
We'll all fall prey

[Repeat bridge]

Waking up
Good morning to you my dear I'm
Waking up
Enduring my biggest fear of

Distance away (Away)
Distance away

Waking up
Good morning to you my dear I'm
Waking up
Enduring my biggest fear love

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` a w e s o m e . q u o t e s

"Read, every day, something no one else is reading. Think, every day, something no one else is thinking. Do, every day, something no one else would be silly enough to do. It is bad for the mind to be always part of unanimity." - Christopher Morley ==================================== "There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness." - Friedrich Nietzsche ==================================== "There was a time when we expected nothing of our children but obedience, as opposed to the present, when we expect everything of them but obedience." - Anatole Broyard ==================================== "Books to the ceiling,/ Books to the sky,/ My pile of books is a mile high./ How I love them! How I need them!/ I'll have a long beard by the time I read them." - Arnold Lobel ==================================== "When you look at yourself from a universal standpoint, something inside always reminds or informs you that there are bigger and better things to worry about." - Albert Einstein ==================================== "Art is science made clear." - Jean Cocteau ==================================== "In the end, we will conserve only that we love. We will love only what we understand. We will understand only what we are taught." - Baba Dioum ==================================== "There are lots of ways of being miserable, but there's only one way of being comfortable, and that is to stop running round after happiness. If you make up your mind not to be happy there's no reason why you shouldn't have a fairly good time." - Edith Wharton ==================================== "The future is much like the present, only longer." - Dan Quisenberry ==================================== "The quickest way of ending a war is to lose it." - George Orwell ==================================== "Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night." - Edgar Allan Poe ==================================== "Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail." -Ralph Waldo Emerson ==================================== "Sometimes the appropriate response to reality is to go insane." - Philip K. Dick ==================================== "I thoroughly disapprove of duels. If a man should challenge me, I would take him kindly and forgivingly by the hand and lead him to a quiet place and kill him." - Mark Twain ==================================== "People that are really very weird can get into sensitive positions and have a tremendous impact on history." - Dan Quayle ==================================== "I know that you believe that you understood what you think I said, but I am not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant." - Robert McCloskey ==================================== "Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it." - Ellen Goodman ==================================== "Late to bed and late to wake will keep you long on money and short on mistakes." - Aaron McGruder ==================================== "Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone you may still exist, but you have ceased to live." - Mark Twain ==================================== "If you make people think they're thinking, they'll love you; But if you really make them think, they'll hate you." - Don Marquis ==================================== "Experience is that marvelous thing that enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again." - Franklin P. Jones ==================================== "Man is the only animal that can remain on friendly terms with the victims he intends to eat until he eats them." - Samuel Butler ==================================== "The place where optimism most flourishes is the lunatic asylum." - Havelock Ellis ==================================== "Talking much about oneself can also be a means to conceal oneself." - Friedrich Nietzsche ==================================== "Until you've lost your reputation, you never realize what a burden it was." - Margaret Mitchell ==================================== "Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live." - Oscar Wilde ==================================== "I hope that while so many people are out smelling the flowers, someone is taking the time to plant some." - Herbert Rappaport ==================================== "What others think of us would be of little moment did it not, when known, so deeply tinge what we think of ourselves." - Paul Valery ==================================== "If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us." - Hermann Hesse ==================================== "There's no point in being grown up if you can't be childish sometimes." - Doctor Who ==================================== "In a mad world only the mad are sane." - Akira Kurosawa ==================================== "Times have not become more violent. They have just become more televised." - Marilyn Manson ==================================== "When ideas fail, words come in very handy." - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe ==================================== "We cross our bridges when we come to them and burn them behind us, with nothing to show for our progress except a memory of the smell of smoke, and a presumption that once our eyes watered." - Tom Stoppard ==================================== "When we ask for advice, we are usually looking for an accomplice." - Marquis de la Grange ==================================== "Sometimes we put up walls, not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to knock them down." - Post Secret ==================================== "Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia." – Charles M. Schulz ==================================== "Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives." - William Dement ==================================== "In order to live, let live." – Baltasar Gracian

`lidiæxcessive.

Saturday, 28 June 2008

` How placid.

` Music && Soul v.48; Ladytron

Thursday, 12 June 2008

` Like the light behind the clouds

` Music && Soul v.47; 10 Years

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