` I'm broken and blue, hurt and abused ..

Mood: Extra moody
Eating: don't think I'll will be
Now playing: Emilie Simon - song of the storm
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

It's been one time, in a long time since the last time my dad ever 'beat' me.
Not senseless though, or else I wouldn't have been reasonable in my defenses *phew* .. but I'm happy at the same time, because I feel like it was the first time I ever really 'spoke out'.
It may not seem like much of an accomplishment .. but it is for me, but not only that I was trying to be reasonable, like I said, good thing he didn't beat me senseless or else it would give him more of an excuse to keep 'exercising'.

I've been really tired the last few days, so going to work really got on my nerve.
And looky here, I learnt to do the same thing as my old man and take out my stress and anger on someone 8D but I didn't beat them to an almost pulp like him.
And for that, I feel somewhat proud .. though I know it's not exactly for the good reasons.

But I finally felt like I spoke out a bit, tried to show him what he was doing.
His obviously too blind, and too ignorant to acknowledge anything .. too arrogant, and having a child speaking the simple truth seems like they're starting rebellion on him - it's what you get for being such a role model, not.

My right shoulder-blade area and a little of my neck is slightly sore, just like this little nagging ache there and my right knee is kinda like, growing a new neighbour .. who will hopefully not stick around too much as a bulge, but a permanent reminder.
Yeah, it's hurting even now.

I might just be the first to have an emotional break down at my work place and at TAFE/college 8D since in high school, I was known for it ~
I wish I could say bye for now, and forever but other times I don't to .. gah, the indecisiveness of me.

.lidia