` Sever me from the world's life

Mood: Lethargic, lacking motivation
Eating: [ate]
Listening to: Bjork - Human Behaviour
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darlings ~

Just a little quick post [I hope], it's a little more than late .. pretty much 11 PM now, should be going to sleep as I have work early in the morning .. but I got to type this up.

It seems a lot of people suddenly want to talk to me .. am I some sort of excuse, a thing to help pass time? Or is it just me, being paranoid, as per usual ... ?
My 'ex', 'Hunter', Julie .. I don't expect you to know them, but I want to keep this as a sort of momento that isn't too pleasant, a reminder to myself; the way life works it the biggest bitch ever.
Popping out of no where, they all decide to talk to me ... act like nothing ever changed.
With Hunter, long distance .. need I say more? yeah .. thought so. It seems to me he wants some sort of reassurance from me .. I don't know what it is exactly about him, but I can't stand his infinite optimism .. it's annoying really. He still thinks he can go around doing my sub-cul [sub-culture] thing with me .. gothic/dark culture, you usually show a lot of affection .. I told him I've grown cold, which I have .. I can't tolerate his behaviour around me.

Then my 'ex' starts talking to me [I think he was high the entire time, but you never can tell these days] and he was all like, I miss you and talking shit and being a major dickhead/asshole/jackass/et cetera .. if I was there, I would've gone up and upsided him .. break some bones. Again, these two people so far haven't gotten the hint, or gotten over things ... move on!
Oh, and then Julie is all like .. zomg, like Uni is so harrrrrd, I thought it would be easy, and then some stupid cutesie giggle crap. From what I've heard, from many other sources [friends], she's been taking it quite easy, in fact, clubbing every night - Mmmm, really been working hard, ay?!
... seriously ~

I think from having to quickly finish assessments, and waking up extra early more than days at a time, is stressing me out .. making me aggravated.
It's probably that that's making me spin out of control .. getting so uptight and quick to snap .. I want to give up .. heh, like what I said to my 'ex' .. I refuse to eat/drink/smoke/breathe/feel/touch/see/taste anything at all, like I'm refusing to live.

I hate complications ~

.lidia