`lidiæxcessive.: ` Dreamworlds are only in dreams, unfortunately.

Monday, 7 January 2008

` Dreamworlds are only in dreams, unfortunately.

Mood: Tired
Now playing: Sneaky Sound System - Tease me
via FoxyTunes
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darlings~

I couldn't sleep properly last night because I kept thinking about how Centrelink stuffed up my pay, and I was suppose to report my income but they no longer send those letters to tell you when so all this time I didn't know and I'll have to write down how much I earned from July till December last year .. and I don't have much time left to do it and I'm totally stressing.
It's their fault, but I still gotta fix the shit they left.

Whenever I worry about something, I really worry .. non-stop.

I've been feeling very withdrawn.
With the stressing over Centerlink and all .. and also because it's been a long while since I've been out long enough with friends, or talked to someone on the net.
I know, can't have everything you want .. still though, I miss talking to someone.
But then, when they do talk to me I don't to talk to them ? It's so confusing ..

Oh, and also last night I was thinking about the book I read before, The Autumn Castle by Kim Wilkins .. I love the adventure in it, the dangers .. but they didn't need to stress about Centerlink, just work and have some money but they could just carry on with their days .. they just needed to stress over relationships .. and later, the main character gets to run away from it all into a beautiful world where there isn't any pain or suffering, where you can stay young and beautiful for much longer .. you don't get sick, you don't have to work that hard.
At that time, when I was lying in bed .. I thought, it would be great if such a world exists .. and maybe, I can even find someone to love me there to, who will always be by my side.
*sigh*

If such a world exists .. I'd love to go there now.

Also before I went to sleep, I was watching I Am Legend, and farout it is touching.
It's kinda like Resident Evil, except the 'virus' was suppose to be a cure for cancer that turned wrong and started killing people instead and turned lethal-deadly.
I started crying when Will's character's dog Samantha dies .. I just cried so badly and then felt really bad about my doggy, Rufus/Ruphy.

So yeah, I was tossing and turning a lot when I was supposedly asleep.
All the more to want to escape from it all .. and bring along a few people and things with me, but just a few~

.lidia

2 comments:

Wizardry said...: You miss talking to people, but when people come, you don't reply. I know the feeling, but what can they expect? We are only products of our environs. We are only able to reply in kind to the way we are treated. As for worrying about things incessantly, which I do, I usually write, or read, but in such cases I need something active to restrain me, thus poetry works well.
'Till later...; 7 January 2008 at 5:05 pm
-- fé. said...: Oh, I write.
I write quite a lot too.
But all my poems go on deviantART.

Thank you for stopping by and commenting~; 7 January 2008 at 5:12 pm

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