haha, elloz my lovely readers ~
It's been a little while, hasn't it? Yeah .. sorries about that folks!
Been busy working, working and working.
No such luck on updates for TAFE yet .. they don't even have the new applications or anything out yet! Oh oh, and last time I tried ringing up a college to check their vacancies .. there were none!
The nice lady said that the TAFE site must be slow on updating .. and seriously, it is.
Wow .. just checked up with the website and they've finally updated it .. yeah, probably just a few weeks ago. My gosh.
I'm starting to really want to get into TAFE now .. working and bumming at home gets boring, ya know. Plus, I want to be doing things that'll get me thise piece of paper which will help allow me get into University to get a better piece of paper where I will hopefully get and then work within the industry I'm really interested in. Though I do feel like doing multiple courses, but of course I don't have that kind of money to be able to do that. And, I'm not smart enough to get a scholarship for it either .. the disadvantages of being dumb.
In other news though, I've been talking to my friend Lidia and gosh, I feel so loved.
She's the kind of person, when I think about it .. you know, they're usually like 'don't approach, intimidating' to other people but get to know them more, they're the sweetest people ever.
At the moment though, she's been going through a rough time and I feel really guilty just sitting here, not being able to go to her side and comfort her, or help her feel better, be there to actually talk to .. not just type/read to .. I really want to be able to be there for her like a real friend. But, given my circumstances I'm in .. I don't exactly have money out of now where to spend on plane tickets, accomidation, food, transport and so on. If I did though, oh .. the things I would be able to do! I'd jet there ASAP no problems.
I'm glad though, that we do have internet, as a means of staying in contact to people and everything. So, I'm still able to be there for her, even while I'm over here .. though I still feel like I could offer her more if I was actually there with her.
Hey, no don't get me wrong here .. yes, I'm attracted to women but I'm not like that with her. I feel extremely strongly with most of my friends, especially those that I've known for a very long time and that've been there through think and thin.
Heh .. I've been told that I'm weak hearted, that I tend to stick with family/friends and all that, which is true. I'm not afraid to admit that. I feel very connected to my family and my friends .. I guess that throughout it all .. I know that these are the people that'll always be there for me, no matter what, and it's nice to know we do have these people to always be there for you, to help you out no matter what happens .. people that help shape who you are, and eventually, what you will become.
Hahaha, yeah .. all triggered because I really want to be there for Lidia. Oh not me sillies, my awesome friend with the same name as me.
I know, she might say otherwise but if she really liked the name, I'll keep calling her that and probably, only know her that way. But I don't feel cheated or lied to .. I can't say I will understand exactly why .. but, you know, it's alright.
Ah, the TAFE site still doesn't have an updated application form for mid-semesters .. damn.
I bet by the time it's time for mid-semester I'm going to miss out .. I know I'm paranoid, but I get a bad feeling that I'm not going to make it in, and I'm going to fail again .. and I don't like being looked down on.
I hate that feeling.
I hate feeling small and that everyone's better than you, that they're able to get out there and achieve something while I'm lagging behind.
Anyways! A little change on presenting this 'little' entry of mine .. I like to be spontaneous, or at least I try to be. Ha, I'm a Cancer .. usually the type to stick to something firmly .. and I want to try to be different. I hope I am!
Ah!! Totally going off track here .. um, change of presenting and well, apologises for not blogging for a while .. kinda wanted to test the archive thingyo .. hahahahha.
I'm proud to be weird.
Well, thank you for reading!
xox Lids
It's been a little while, hasn't it? Yeah .. sorries about that folks!
Been busy working, working and working.
No such luck on updates for TAFE yet .. they don't even have the new applications or anything out yet! Oh oh, and last time I tried ringing up a college to check their vacancies .. there were none!
The nice lady said that the TAFE site must be slow on updating .. and seriously, it is.
Wow .. just checked up with the website and they've finally updated it .. yeah, probably just a few weeks ago. My gosh.
I'm starting to really want to get into TAFE now .. working and bumming at home gets boring, ya know. Plus, I want to be doing things that'll get me thise piece of paper which will help allow me get into University to get a better piece of paper where I will hopefully get and then work within the industry I'm really interested in. Though I do feel like doing multiple courses, but of course I don't have that kind of money to be able to do that. And, I'm not smart enough to get a scholarship for it either .. the disadvantages of being dumb.
In other news though, I've been talking to my friend Lidia and gosh, I feel so loved.
She's the kind of person, when I think about it .. you know, they're usually like 'don't approach, intimidating' to other people but get to know them more, they're the sweetest people ever.
At the moment though, she's been going through a rough time and I feel really guilty just sitting here, not being able to go to her side and comfort her, or help her feel better, be there to actually talk to .. not just type/read to .. I really want to be able to be there for her like a real friend. But, given my circumstances I'm in .. I don't exactly have money out of now where to spend on plane tickets, accomidation, food, transport and so on. If I did though, oh .. the things I would be able to do! I'd jet there ASAP no problems.
I'm glad though, that we do have internet, as a means of staying in contact to people and everything. So, I'm still able to be there for her, even while I'm over here .. though I still feel like I could offer her more if I was actually there with her.
Hey, no don't get me wrong here .. yes, I'm attracted to women but I'm not like that with her. I feel extremely strongly with most of my friends, especially those that I've known for a very long time and that've been there through think and thin.
Heh .. I've been told that I'm weak hearted, that I tend to stick with family/friends and all that, which is true. I'm not afraid to admit that. I feel very connected to my family and my friends .. I guess that throughout it all .. I know that these are the people that'll always be there for me, no matter what, and it's nice to know we do have these people to always be there for you, to help you out no matter what happens .. people that help shape who you are, and eventually, what you will become.
Hahaha, yeah .. all triggered because I really want to be there for Lidia. Oh not me sillies, my awesome friend with the same name as me.
I know, she might say otherwise but if she really liked the name, I'll keep calling her that and probably, only know her that way. But I don't feel cheated or lied to .. I can't say I will understand exactly why .. but, you know, it's alright.
Ah, the TAFE site still doesn't have an updated application form for mid-semesters .. damn.
I bet by the time it's time for mid-semester I'm going to miss out .. I know I'm paranoid, but I get a bad feeling that I'm not going to make it in, and I'm going to fail again .. and I don't like being looked down on.
I hate that feeling.
I hate feeling small and that everyone's better than you, that they're able to get out there and achieve something while I'm lagging behind.
Anyways! A little change on presenting this 'little' entry of mine .. I like to be spontaneous, or at least I try to be. Ha, I'm a Cancer .. usually the type to stick to something firmly .. and I want to try to be different. I hope I am!
Ah!! Totally going off track here .. um, change of presenting and well, apologises for not blogging for a while .. kinda wanted to test the archive thingyo .. hahahahha.
I'm proud to be weird.
Well, thank you for reading!
xox Lids
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