` Some things in life ...

Mood: Hmmm, non.
Chewing: Wrigley's Extra Liquid Blast Peppermint
Now playing: Katy Perry - I Kissed A Girl
via FoxyTunes
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darlings ~

CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP!!
I'm going back to TAFE/college tomorrow -- hopefully if everything has sorted itself out -- as a second year!
That only means, success that I've passed all my first year classes and more days needed to spend @ the campas, and less work days but longer hours; more travel && less time to get home to get to assessments and projects!!
I don't know whether to rejoice or cry in agony~

Some things in life though, are just better left unknown.
Such as, my little brother's love life where he told me, just like in normal conversation, that his already tongued 3 girls already.
Call me immature and childish -- hey, I know I am and will admit to it -- but I REALLY didn't need to know.
The song by Katy Perry that I'm listening to was cause of that awkward confession.
That is, I rather like the song not only for it's catchy beats *hint hint*, which prompted him to ask if it was because my orientation -- which, I have talked to about with friends and members of the family minusthedadthnx -- which then lead to further questioning.
I really don't want to explain the rest because it makes me feel embarrassed and well, I'm so not used to talking about these things with my younger brother >_>"

I can't be bothered sorting out what I'll be needing to take to class, only because, I don't have a proper timetable 'cept the info my international-korean-TAFE/college-buddy Kate emailed over, which was only a draft, so the class times could've changed by then.
So, I'll probably be bringing my miniatures of equipment, as I would love not to be luggaging lots of heavy things around, and so, bringing half of what the mostly needed things needed should be sufficient -- I hope!!

I seriously cannot wait for the day when I finish my course, and I seriously hope that I'll have some sort of luck which I lack, to get into the business and be successful there, in what I have in mind, and then have enough money to firstly, MOVE OUT and learn to be independent because boy, does my dad have a lot to say about me, in general.
And not in the nicest of ways either -- Such a piss off.
Moving along, once I've learnt to cope with being on my own I hope then to be able to try starting commissions as a sort of way to learn to keep practicing art making and such, and also a way to get some income of my own, on my own.
I think though, I won't move out until I'm 25 and over ... but it's my dream of coping on my own, someday at least I do hope I will be able to do these things.

Now, it's probably funny the way I've talked big about being independent.
That might be because I'm a fairly sheltered child, and one that's also sometimes too accepting of this but overall, is so scared of getting that first foot forward because, I don't know what everything will crumple down in disaster.
I think I'm agrophobic, fear of open spaces .. I went looking into a list of phobias.
Anyway, someday I will learn to cope and I will get over my many, many fears and some day, I will be able to stand up to my dad without any feeling of fear whatsoever.
I just hope, I don't become too cold a person.





.lidia